- Thoughts from the third world -

I’m sitting right here
thinking about you and me.
How did this change
when my love go away.

I waited for you all day long
and all that I got was a call
a simple message saying you won’t come
another night being by my own.

I still remember those days we spend together
talking about our love and other stuff.
Now It seems like a decade or so
I wish we could talk as we did before.

Childish things round my head now at days
I know I should be more mature for my age
Is just I have so much fun living with my innocence
But for you is just randomness that soon will go off.

I don’t really know who I am anymore
neither I know what I want for my life at this point
I just wish I could be young forever
and don’t worry about love, marriage or any job.

So I’m still undecided if I’ll grow up 
or if I’ll be a girl for a little while.
But the thing is, Will you still love me?
or your used to be by mi side
that don’t realize that maybe
I’m not what you want anymore.

I’m also scared to leave you
but I also wish to feel that freedom
that sense of being able to conquer the world
and that the future could  bring me happiness
and everything that I wanted.

I’m just confused
I don’t know what I’ll do….